Ouchy

 When I was 11 I ripped my knee open and had to get stitches. I was having panic attacks and fighting the doctor to get away from me with any needles that he felt like assaulting my knee with. My mom had me close my eyes and picture butterflies and before I knew it knee was numbed, cleaned and stitched up. Seventeen years later, laying on a table, a doctor came at me with a 4-6 inch needle and I found myself closing my eyes and thinking of butterflies. Who knew something I learned as a kid would still hold true today as a 28 year old woman.
Had the MRI today, never knew contrasting dye could cause so many problems, and me being such a freak out for the next two days I will constantly be checking for hives, my tongue swelling and making sure I have no difficulty swallowing. I can't wait to do this walk! The MRI wasn't as bad as the first one I ever had, but I was still nervous and walked into that room palms sweating and heart racing. I climbed onto the table after having the contrasting dye injected and she handed me some headphones and asked me what music she wanted me to crank up and I of course told her to play me some country! She had me go in that thing pretty deep, but for once my clausterphobia didn't take control and I was able to close my eyes and snooze for th e 40 minutes that I laid in the tube of hell with my wonderful country music pumping through my ears. Laying on my back for that long definitely was uncomfortable, which has been the case since I hurt my hip. I can't lay on my back for more than 15 minutes without pain and discomfort rolling through my back. Once it was done though it was entertaining to watch me walk on my completely numb leg! I was scared to drive home, but I made it home safe and sound... and my wonderful husband even cooked me dinner.
Two giant needles into the hip joint has definitely turned out to be a very painful thing that as the numbing agent wears off causes great pain. I am hoping that by tomorrow the pain is much less, to nothing. I have to have full function of my hip back for the walk on Saturday. I have so many of my friends who have joined the walk, and although they couldn't donate much to nothing at all, just knowing that they are there to support me and the trials and tribulations that I am constantly going through because of my hip. It makes me feel that even though I may feel alone so many times in this process because they don't know everything I am going through, I still have those people to fall back on when I'm feeling at my lowest. That is an amazing feeling to have... I like that feeling.