Better Day!

I found myself on the floor a couple of times yesterday... I didn't fall but my hip would just stop working and I would sink to the floor and just sit there for a minute wondering what the hell was going on. I almost broke into to tears, but realized this is all a part of it, this is what my life entails now and I can't cry every time it happens, it can't work that way. I would pull myself off the floor and continue doing what I was doing and didn't let it phase me. Rob was definitely worried but I told him I was alright and he just kept an eye on me for the rest of the night. So lucky to have such an amazing husband who understands what I am going through and supports me through all the crazy things I try to do when we both know I shouldn't!
Today I had a pop and weird catch happen and since then I'm not as pinchy today as I have been since the MRI which is a welcome surprise. I was thinking that the injection completely fucked off my hip, but now I don't know if it's that or inactivity. It's such a double edged sword though, because I want to get up and move but it hurts so much to get up and move so I just have to will myself. I have to get past the pain that I am feeling and realize that it's all worth it. The moving and working out is only making me healthier and is making me stronger and my hip stronger which gives the disease less power over me and my life. It doesn't let it win over my life. I feel as though this is something that people with arthritis forget sometimes.
There are times when I encounter people with arthritis (quite a few at the walk on Saturday) and the just seem so defeated, as though they don't have the energy to fight. I can understand the want to give up, not having the energy to fight the battle, but if you don't fight you lose the life that you once enjoyed. I wish all those who have given up could meet someone that could show them that it's not the end of their lives to be diagnosed with arthritis. They just have to modify the way they do things now compared to then, but they can still do all the things they loved. I still hike, I may not run the trails anymore, but my ass is still out there hiking 1200 foot elevation hikes, climbing over rocks, walking up switchbacks and when I make it to the tops of those mountains there is nothing more amazing to feel then to know you just conquered a mountain. You can conquer anything as long as you put your heart, soul and mind into it because your body can do whatever you want it too as long as you can fight through what you think is your breaking point. You'll be fine... go conquer a mountain...